Unrealistic Expectations – stress vent

Warning: This is a stress vent.  If you would care not to read, please skip to the last paragraph that has my prayer requests.  :-)  For all others…..

Here’s the deal.  I have come to the sudden realization, that I pile on myself way too many unrealistic expectations.  Yes, I am just realizing this now.  It could be the fact that I leave in one day to fly over to Russia for court.  It could be that all outside school classes are ramping up for the semester, and I am recognizing our own time crunch over the next several weeks. Maybe it’s the fact that I fail to recognize how much time I need just to get ready to go?  I still planned tennis lessons, and Lego Robotics, but three activities are canceled for the evening.  Whatever it is I am stressed to the max, figuring out all the details.  I can not wait until we get can bring our munchkin home for absolute good, and we can all breathe a sigh of relief.  Only a few more weeks. 

My friend in blogland Phyllis emailed me some encouragement last week.  I need to read it again.  Perhaps some of you are doing this (adopting) with other children at home.  I have 3 at home, that I am homeschooling and that are involved in a lot of outside activities for school, and extracurricular.  I am feeling the pressure.  Will Jabber Jaw be able to figure out his persuasive essay on a health topic?  Will we be able to be prepared and take the science test (another outside class) a week early before we head out of town for our final trip?  Will Tiger Shark be able to complete the big literature project due on Sherlock Holmes?  It will have to be handed in a week early and we have no idea what it is yet….?  What about the writing competition when we return home?  I will be very glad when winter break hits….

On top of that: Tiger Shark has broken out in poison ivy that is not getting better.  I took him to the drs. early last week to have it checked, and now it is spreading and getting worse.  So I need to take him back in and get some type of steroid cream to take this reaction down.  Jabber Jaw has a football game, and we will be in the air while it is going on.  I’m not sure why I worry about this, because really if he were hurt, I couldn’t do anything about it if we were on the ground in Russia, or if we were in the air.  But for some reason I am worried.  Thank the Lord Small Fry is doing well… that little guy is gonna love on his grandparents while we are away.

If you are inclined, please say a prayer for us.  Pray for my children and their grandparents at home, that they would be safe and that their time would be sweet together.  Please also pray for our court date.  Pray that this new judge would be fair, and that we would speak clearly and concisely and from our hearts.  I pray that this judge recognizes our 1st adoption and how well Small Fry is doing.  Pray also for safety while we travel, and while in country.  There are a million details that I am thinking about for the third trip, but I’m going to let that go for now and just focus on this trip.  Trip #2.

Thanks friends!

~Jackie